birthday
its really funny that i title this ‘birthday’ despite the faxt that my birthday was quite literally 2 months ago…. its not my birthdy as you can tell but it is my boyfriend birthday…well in his timezone fuck ldrs i will m ake it to his house if i have to
im really happy i get to spend another year with this guy. he’s really saved me honestly. 6 years of friendship and all those years ive been pining and hoping that the day we get married comes along. or not even married i just want to be domestic witb him. i’d really like to have our own house or apartment with stabke jobs and a pet. maybe a kid too once were set but its not my biggest priority. i really just want to be with him physically.
i loce giftmaking and i love sending him packages but the video he sent of him ynboxing what i sent was really unnerving i dont know why but im so scared for no reason. its like i dont know his tone feels off im really scared did i not put as much effort into his gift this year? i really hope thats not the case i really just don’t want him to leave me. ive been grappling with the worsf feelings of abandonment which further fuels the fire to just leave and start a new life with him bur i am a minor so likeee. yeah.
idk just random ramblings